Exhausted....

I'm just so completley drained and exhausted from everything these past couple weeks. Last week at work just kicked my ass and not only am I tired from that just emotionally lately I've been so drained. It's just kind of hard and frustrating dealing with things and being so tired from work it all just has built up more a lot lately this past week.

I made good money this week but ugh I'm scared that today and tomorrow the money I won't make isn't going to be enough to help me out with my trip to San Antonio this weekend. Thinking about asking my mom for money to help me out with it is a little scary. Especially b/c I already had to ask her for money for my speeding ticket that I had to pay for last week too. I have money in the bank but I also have to pay Ashlen $350 by next Monday and with me being off Saturday and only working a night shift on Sunday I don't think it'll be do-able.

Just thinking about all of this stuff just stresses me out more the more that I think about it.

All this has just made me so exhausted and tired that I just want to lay down and sleep for days and also just cry my eyes out.

Frusterating...

First off I hate that I was stupid on Sunday night and f'ed up my tires and can't even drive my car right now till I get 2 new rims or tires. I was supposed to get them yesterday but that didn't happen, so now it might not be till tomorrow or Friday. I just hope it's soon b/c I hate not having a car to go anywhere and I have to ask other people for a ride to places and work too. It just sucks.

Also just guys in general are soooooooooo frusterating to me right now. It's like I know how one certain person does care about me but it's just frusterating that we can't actually be together and be a couple. It's just weird to me right now. It's all just a lot to take it these days. I'm just really confused...it sucks too.

Basically right now I'm just in this sucky mood these past 4 days. It's not fun at all to me. Bleeeeech.